Dan Sebenarnya...

Assalamualaikum semua…

Sejak sibuk bekerja ni , takde kelapangan untuk post anything about myself, my life, and what happened around me…
Since that also, a friend of mine said my blog was “BORED”???!

Sambil type post ni, sambil layan lagu ‘Grammy Award winner’ – Adele…

Because something shock me somewhere…

Akhirnya , sayup angin lalu membawa masuk ke rongga halwa menyampaikan perihal tersebut…

Something told me it will come out someday, its just a matter of when and how…
Then, I already prepared myself to accept it with open hand and open heart…
Like my friend’s quotes ;

“ if you open your heart, you’ll never face closed door…”

Lebih kurang macam tu la bunyi die…
Aku pon tak berapa nak paham sangat sebenarnye…

Well, bagi siape yang benar2 mengenali ‘Muhammad Faheszi bin Mahat’ , (for sure my best buddy – Saye Paejan) they will know exactly my behavior.

I maybe like to talk shit, and sometime don’t even make sense , tapi percaye la , I never really mean it.
If I said A , that mean I mean it by B.

Pokok akar tunjangnye disini adalah, what do I really felt when you told me about that?
For sure ade sedikit rase kecewa , kecik hati , sentap , sedih , happy , dan macam2 lagi perasaan yang berbaur mixed feeling inside…

Hey, u know what? I am a fucking normal human being , I do have feeling and heart…
Well , my friends told me , let the past be a history. Usah dikenang bende yang dah lepas… iye idak?

Dan sebenarnye, aku dah agak bende ni akan sampai kepada aku , akibat terlalu lali dengan perbuatan sebegitu rupa sejak dulu lagi , aku dah terbiasa dengan all the bullshit.

“Alah bisa tegal biasa…”

Kadang – kadang aku terpikir jugak , ade baik nya everything happen not in order as what we want.
Ia mengajar kita sebuah erti maksud pengajaran dan membuat diri lebih matang dan kuat.

“ Segala apa yang dihajat ,
Tapi tak dapat ,
Adalah sebuah nikmat ,
Yang paling padat . . . " - A. Samad Said

For sure , I’m glad for her. It’s a good thing to do. If she were with me , I can’t promise her happiness. Because I don’t have nothing to guaranty.
So , I just can wish her . . .

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

>_<"